Thursday, July 21, 2016

A Million People, A Million Paths

Lately the Lord has been revealing to me the importance of allowing our journey to be what it is--of allowing ourselves to be who the Lord created us to be. Because there are a million different paths that He has for us, and I think a lot of times we forget that. Our focus is on salvation (as it should be), so we get fixated on this idea that there is ONE path to heaven, and that idea is 100% correct. That path is Jesus. It is open to all, but it is the only way. However, that one path of salvation does not mean that our lives are all going to look the exact same. We may have the same mission, but the way that God calls us to live out that mission is going to vary, and that is where we have to stand firm and listen to Him alone--not the cries of this world and the people in it. Over the past month or so, the Lord has led me to several different passages in the Bible that have spoken directly to this and my struggles with it.

God speaks to us differently. In Psalm 139, David talks about how the Lord knows us so incredibly deeply--far better than we could ever know ourselves. He says in verses 1-3,
 "You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways."
The whole psalm is just a reminder that He knows us so well (because He created us), and therefore He loves us better than anyone could and speaks to us clearer than anyone could. While He loves us all the same amount (enough to send His Son to die in our place), I think that He shows us that in different ways. He speaks, not only His love, but His promises and truth into our lives in different ways. He reveals Himself to us in different ways. In ways that speak to us in only the way that one who knows us as deeply as He does could. He speaks to us all through scripture directly, but I think He also reveals Himself in different ways. For me, it is through creation, through music, through metaphors. To others it is other things. But Psalm 139 and the depth of His love for and knowledge of us is proof to me that we are unique. Fearfully and wonderfully made. Reflections of Him. But unique.

We are tempted differently. In Matthew 5, we are told in verses 29 and 30, "If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away." I had always just viewed these verses as "get rid of what makes you stumble." I still think that is what the verses are saying, but I read something about these verses that shed a new light on it. The different body parts are mentioned, because there are going to be different things we struggle with. We are each going to sin differently, and therefore we are each going to have to deal with that sin differently. Unique.

So, God was just revealing all over the place how unique we are and how different He makes us. All of this confirmation was leading up to the verses He sent me to in 1 Corinthians. Verses I knew well, but now know even better.

1 Corinthians 12. I've heard and read this chapter many times over the years, but about a month ago the Lord brought it to my attention again, and it really spoke to me, summing up everything else that He'd been showing me.

"12 Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, so it is with Christ. 13 For we were all baptized by[c] one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink. 14 Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.
15 Now if the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19 If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, but one body."

There's a lot lot lot of good stuff there, but I'm going to condense what my thoughts were/are.

We are one body. We have one same mission, as I mentioned before. That unites us all as the body. But if the body is going to work, we have to be different. And that's where all our different paths come into play.

I'm going to be honest, this post and all the places that God led me in scripture came from a point of insecurity and uncertainty in my mission. Over the last year, the Lord has molded me and my desires and passions a lot, and I have come to find how interconnected my artistic passions are with my passions for Christ. He has created me in a unique way, with unique passions, and if those passions are from Him, they absolutely coincide with that one mission that we as believers share.

I have felt very called to be reaching people in the arts world, specifically theatre. So this summer, I spent my time (a LOT of my time) at a theatre, rehearsing for a musical alongside a large cast and crew. And I'll be honest, at first I felt like I was wasting my summer. I believe comparison is something that the enemy uses to hurt the body. I found myself wondering if I could really be serving God as well as the people who spent their summers working camps, working at church, performing in worship bands, going on mission trips, and doing whatever else they might be doing. The answer was a resounding, "YES!" from my Savior.

He needs people at camps, at church, in worship bands, on mission trips, and everywhere else He may call them. But He needs me at the theatre in the same way. He needs me there, pouring His love and truth into those people. What I've learned is that anywhere there are people to be reached with the Gospel, He needs people to take it there. It isn't about which place is "best." Because not a single one is better or "more Christian" than another. It is about listening to His voice and following where He leads. And celebrating each part of the body that is doing what He has called it to. Our community as the body of Christ needs to run deep, and we need to cultivate the grace and truth that can then be carried out in love to the places He leads us to.

So, today I celebrate you. Wherever He has called you to--a camp, overseas, your school, your summer job, the theatre--wherever--be all there. Submerge yourself into His mission and live it. Impact people and allow the Lord to pour into you and overflow into them.

Thankful today and everyday that He leads us where He needs us.


Friday, July 8, 2016

With a Broken Heart

This summer has been one of tragedy for our nation. I don't want to just "be sad" anymore. I don't want to just "be angered" at the politics and political response anymore. Neither one of those things is going to solve anything.

I want to have my heart broken.

It is in the tragic times that Christians often say, "I'm praying for you." And I think those prayers are important, but there's another prayer that I've been praying over these tragedies.

"Break my heart, Lord. Break it in two."

Because here's the truth--we can pray for peace for the people involved in these tragedies, but it isn't until we change that we will see change.  I can pray for these people, but it isn't until the Lord breaks my heart for what breaks His that I will have compassion and true love.  Until He breaks my heart, I won't see human life as He does.

So many of us try to say that we understand the oppression of the minorities in this nation.  So many of us try to deny the hurt that these people face, saying that "things have gotten better."  We are sympathetic in tragedy, but it is to be empathetic for which I strive.  But I can't be.  Not unless I have the eyes of my Lord.

So, I will pray for peace and comfort for the victims of these acts of violence, as well as all of those hurting because of it.  I 100% believe that those prayers, when prayed with a sincere heart, are important and valuable and effective.  But I'm also praying for the Lord to break my heart.  I want to see people like He does.  And from what the Bible says, He sees every single person as person that he LOVES.  So much that He would send His only son to die in their place, and in my place.

I want to hurt and mourn alongside of the LGBTQ community.  Alongside the black community.  Alongside the Dallas police.  As innocent lives are taken, our Lord weeps, because He values those lives.  I want to weep with Him.  He cries over the hearts He created and chases after, even if they are running the other direction.  But He also, in the midst of the darkness that is sweeping our nation, sees the potential.  

I happened to be reading Isaiah 35 the other day, and it showed me this--how the Lord sees potential.  He is the King of making beauty from messes.

The desert and the parched land will be glad;
    the wilderness will rejoice and blossom.
Like the crocus, it will burst into bloom;
    it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy.
[vs. 1-2]
...
And a highway will be there;
    it will be called the Way of Holiness;
    it will be for those who walk on that Way.
The unclean will not journey on it;
    wicked fools will not go about on it.
 No lion will be there,
    nor any ravenous beast;
    they will not be found there.
But only the redeemed will walk there,
       and those the Lord has rescued will return.
They will enter Zion with singing;
    everlasting joy will crown their heads.
Gladness and joy will overtake them,
    and sorrow and sighing will flee away.
[vs. 8-10]

When He looks into the eyes of each human affected, He sees potential.  He sees a future with Him.  He sees a transformed life.  He sees a life full of joy.  And I want to see that too.  

Break my heart, Lord.

I want to live this life with a broken heart, because when my heart is broken the way His is, truth and grace will balance as love and overflow from my heart.

Break my heart, Lord.  Break our hearts.